I've never seen you as anything but inquisitive and cool.....

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.......... .............Stay Cool..........
.......everyone has their own stuff to deal with, and you seem to me, to cope just fine.....I know things can be hard with some of the things that life throws our way, heck 11 yrs ago my life was hell....20 yr marriage breakup......that was my shit to deal with.....oops sorry, but thats one I'm not takin' back !.....you all know how bad it can be.....
.....always, always, always, look to tomorrow, ....you may still hear birds sing, see blue skies, fly a kite, .....whatever,...if there is something in life that you enjoy, then enjoy it and try to push that horrid "down" feeling back a bit........
..........smiles await everyone,....its up to you to grab and enjoy them.........