i asked one of you to blow me away

knowing me i'd make a mess of it and just end up with a hole in my foot

i really cant understand why i cant just walk away from this, all my life i have moved due to the army life, lost friends made news ones, but i have just never really given it a second thought then one person comes along and suddenly thats all gone out the window, and what really annoys me is i used to be a real A'hole who just turn off my feelings towards a person at any point and not give a damn about anyone and i cant do that either.
hey fozzer wheres that rifle you were supposed to be sending a few weeks back:)
and thanks ozzy i know it must seem like your hitting your head against a brick wall with this, and i do appreciate your patience with this, and i even do listen and follow the advice its just then something else comes along a short time later :-/